Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Daddy's at work, Day 2

Karl went back to work OFFICIALLY yesterday. . . I know I had kept saying he was going back the following day but the first time he ended up getting a call saying they were having a 4 day weekend so he got an extra 4 days off and then Russ ended up super sick and in the hospital for over 3 hours the next time he was suppose to go back to work. So yesterday, he finally did. Being home with both of the kiddos wasn't too terribly hard. Russ is still a little sick so he was cranky and cried most of the morning. But, we got through it and I even was able to get in a 2 hour nap! By the end of the day, I still had all my hair and surprisingly still had a ton of patience left over from the day.

Today is just the same. Russ is still sick, cranky and wants nothing to do with me when I hold Addie. Makes it hard to get anything done. I get up, he cries. I touch Addie, he cries. Someone comes to the door, he cries. . . Cry cry cry. I finally got him down for a nap and Addie is down as well and so this means I should be napping butttttt, I just can't seem to get myself down. I know I should because I have been behind on sleep since Russ was born but, I'm just not that tired. I often feel like sleeping during the day is such a waste but I'm so tired most days that I don't care.

Sooo, I won't be sleeping.
Anywho, I finally enrolled in school. I am going for my associates for cvt and will head towards my bachelors in animal science. I'm tired of just having experience. I was education. Besides, this'll be super easy considering I have 7 years of experience in the animal field. I'll pass with flying colors and hopefully learn tons of new things along the way!

Nothing else is really new. We just take things day by day and roll with the punches. Life hasn't been too hectic so I'd say we are doin alright! 

Monday, August 27, 2012

6 months later . . .

I have not written in over 6 months! My last post was March 19th. My baby boy had just turned 1 a few days prior! Wow, how time flies! He's now approaching 18 months AND Addisyn Rose is here!!! 

So, here is what's been going on since my last post (: 

Meet Addisyn Rose Kroner
August 9, 2012
10:38am
7lbs 5oz
21in

Isn't she just a doll? I agree, I'm so in love. Gosh, Karl and I make beautiful kids. . . Is that vein? Lol. Anyways, this is our biggest news in the last 6 months. But of course it is! She had a little bit of a rough start but here is the story. 
So at about 32 weeks my pelvis became misaligned apparently. It started out slow but then suddenly hit hard. I couldn't lay flat in bed, I couldn't roll over, bend, sit down or get up without feeling an intense amount of pain. I was ready for Addie to arrive before she was even safely allowed to come. I was miserable. So once I hit full term, I started walking ALOT, hiking, doing things that might help ease up the labor and start labor. By 39 weeks, she still hadn't arrived and I finally gave up, telling myself she will arrive when she wants too.  On Wednesday, August 8th (2 days before my due date), I went for a mile "fast waddle". I got some contractions going but nothing that stuck around. When I got home, I bounced on the yoga ball for a little while and still no contractions so, I kicked my feet up and relaxed! We went to bed that night and at about 4:30am I woke up with the urge that I had just peed the bed. So I went to the restroom, it felt normal to me and went back to bed. As I was laying there I felt very very faint period cramps but thought nothing of it (purposely) because I didn't want to get my hopes up. 15 minutes later, I again had the urge to pee so I stood up out of bed and out came gushing fluids. . . Don't let those fuckers at the doctors office tell you that shit doesn't gush because it does (well it did for me). . . So as I'm walking to the bathroom, I yell at Karl to wake up because it's time. He jumps out of bed but SLOWLY gets ready. We seriously didn't get to the hospital (which is 5 minutes away) until after 6. My contractions weren't bad so I didn't really rush him anyways.

We arrived at the hospital and were admitted at 7am. My contractions started picking up about 8 and by 9 they were unbearable so I begged for an epidural. The anesthesiologist came in, prepped me and placed the epidural. . . This should be the good part of my labor experience right? You know, the part where the pain goes away?

WRONG!!!!!!

My arms went numb. . . Not my legs. . . MY ARMS!!! WTF?! So by the time they realized that it just wasn't going to take I NEEDED to push. The doctors told me, "don't push yet.". . . Uhmmm, this baby is going to come out right now whether someone is down there to catch her or not. That is how ready I was. Oh and did I mention my arms were numb?
So, since they didn't realize until about 10:10 that the epi wasn't working, it was too late to fix and guess who went all natural!? ME!
I thought I was going to die. 
I was screaming.

The nurse told me, "Suzanne, get a hold of yourself and breath. . ."

If I could have felt my arms, I would have hauled off and smacked the woman. 

Anyways, I only pushed for 15 minutes and our perfect little angel arrived.

It was a much different experience then I thought it'd be. Much worse. Definitely painful and for the brief moments that I felt pain I told myself I'd never have anymore kids. But, here I sit, 19 days later and only remember that I was in pain, not how the pain felt.

I'd do it again. . . 

She spent her first couple hours in NICU. She swallowed a great deal of meconium and it caused her some crappy spit up problems. She had her stomach pumped twice and by the second time she wasn't spitting up anymore. We were discharged the following day. That was seriously my shortest hospital visit ever. 6 hour labor and only 30 hours in the hospital total! GO US.

Grandma and Grandpa Kroner came to visit the following morning after we were discharged! They haven't seen Russ since their last visit when he turned 1. They were overjoyed and we were quite happy to see them as well! Lots of eating out {blah} and time for them to spend with their grandbabies.

Their visit quickly came to an end after a week and it was just Karl and I to get into a routine which happened pretty quickly. Russ was a little unruly at first but he has become a wonderful big brother. He loves to kiss her, hold her and love on her! He is learning to be quite gentle with her. It seriously makes our hearts melt.

As for now, Addie has had some reflux problems that have taken a toll on everyone here with multiple doctor visits and what not. She even had to have some oxygen again because she was in the 80's for oxygen level at her first appointment when we started noticing the reflux. The doctors put her on a special formula and it had seemed to help until last night, she was up all night screaming, arching her back, spitting up and even vomited again today which we hadn't seen since Thursday when we started the formula so we will be back to the doctor today.
Russ was on his way to school and we noticed that he was burning up. Took his temp and he has a 102.7 fever. We gave him some tylenol this morning but it's only taken it down to 101.8 so he will be going with us to Addie's appointment here in a bit.

As for the prior months to Addie's big arrival, we have done well. We have all adjusted wonderfully to Colorado and are loving it. I've made some fantastic friends here and Karl the same. We got a new dog, Kai. She is about 4 and was not wanted by her previous owners for whatever reason so we took her in and she has become such a perfect addition to the family. 


Dutch broke his shoulder and had 3 surgeries and we spent 3 months, once a week, in the ER getting x-rays to make sure the bone was healing properly. Once he did, he ended up with parvo. . . He was so young when he broke his shoulder that we couldn't finish his vaccines and don't ask me how because he never left the house due to him having the broken shoulder but somehow ended up with Parvo. Powers Pet Emergency were wonderful to us. After $3500 for his surgeries, (they let us make payments), I didn't dare take Dutch to them for the parvo because I didn't want them to think I was expecting that to be put into payments as well. So I took him to a small clinic here near Fort Carson and they were terrible. Basically told me I was killing my dog by not giving him in hospital treatment which was going to cost me $700 just to get him admitted, not counting all the days he'd need to be hospitalized and the medications.
Well, they knew we were being seen at the ER so once we left, they called the ER but didn't tell them why we were there so the ER called me, I explained the situation and they told me to bring Dutch in. They didn't care what they would have to do, they would help Dutch. His bill would have been another 3-4 grand on top of the $3500 we had already incurred but they took from their donation fund they run and gave us all the discounts they could and knocked our bill to $1500 for 5 days of hospitalized treatment and you can bet your sweet ass that they healed Dutch completely. We did send Dutch to live with grandma and grandpa Kroner though. They've been talking about wanting a dog for awhile and when Addie got close to arriving Dutch started acting out again. He started peeing in the house and chewing everything up which he hadn't done for months so we thought it best to let him go live with them and he's adjusted better then ever to life in the boonies :p

Everything else has been pretty much the same. Photography has picked up dramatically and Karl is doing well with his new unit. Life is movin right along for us Kroners despite the few speed bumps we've hit along the way. We are more blessed then we could ever imagine and that takes the place of all the monies and riches anyone could ever have in the world (:

Until next time!!! 






Monday, March 19, 2012

What a week...No, month...

Oh good Lord. It's been almost a month since I've written last. Life has once again slipped right out of my hands and most days all I've wanted to do is crawl in bed and die.
The past month has been extremely stressful. Russ has been having a VERY rough time sleeping, more so then usual. His pattern has always been up every 2 hours and that was hard. But lately, he goes to bed at 9, wakes up at 11 and stays up for 3-4 and sometimes 5 hours. Nothing we do can get him back to sleep. And it isn't like he wants to get up and play because he tries himself to get back to sleep but some nights just screams, others he falls asleep and then wakes up 2 minutes later. The lack of sleep between Karl and I with him working 12 hour days and me being up all day with Russ has definitely taken its toll. He literally sleeps for 6-7 hours a DAY, in a 24 hour period, and that's on a good day. So you can imagine for us it's about 4-5 hours because we have to get things done ourselves...

We thought the stress would be removed since Karls parents were coming into town last week. They got here Tuesday and the first day was great but after that, tension started building and suddenly them being here wasn't making anything easier but actually harder. I won't say what went on, just that it wasn't pleasant and that the stress "must have" gotten to everyone else. We LOVE having our parents out but with everything going on in our lives at the moment, this was a hard visit and I'm happy to have my home back.

Last week Russ turned ONE! OMG! Can you believe it?? I certainly can not. He's so big now, it almost breaks my heart but at the same time watching him grow has been the best thing to ever happen to me. I can attest to him having the best birthday ever. He got lots of presents, got his FIRST hair cut, and got to play outside! It was just a beautiful day out!
Grandma and grandpa Kroner got him an all terrain radio flyer wagon that he LOVES! Mommy and daddy got him a push lawn mower that blows bubbles, a couple smaller toys and a water table for the yard that he can play in when it starts to stay warm out! All his friends and extended family have sent him cards with $$$ in them and so we've set all the money aside and are going to take him to buy him a play yard set with a slide and stuff! We are hoping to do that tonight (:

Other then the stress and all thats going on including that I didn't mention, life is good in Colorado. The weather is starting to get beautiful and we are able to enjoy the outdoors more. I'm doing my hunters safety courses online and then will have to take a class at the end of this month to get my card and hopefully this week we can get our fishing licenses so we can go fishing this weekend! 



We need a destresser! 

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Almost debt freeeeeee!

Oh how it feels to say we are almost completely debt free! Today we have officially paid off over $5,000 in debt! No, that doesn't mean we're gonna be rich now and have a ton of money to splurge but it does mean we'll be living more comfortably especially since we took such a large pay cut moving from Hawaii to Colorado. It feels great!!!

Friday the movers come to finally deliver our stuff! I was beginning to think we would never get our household goods. It's been over a month since we've been without and lemme' tell ya, you definitely realize to not take advantage of having things like your couch and big screen and pots and pans...Those things seem so little and unimportant but in all reality when you live with those things for so long and then they are suddenly gone you go nuts. Lol maybe that's the materialistic side of humanity talking but hey. Regardless.

In two weeks our parents will be out here to help celebrate Russ' first birthday! It's still up in the air what we're gonna do for him but we want it to be special! He's a very special boy ;)

Well, all, have a good night ( : Short but sweet tonight...Americas Next Top Model starts soon and I need ice cream!!!!

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Chocolate milk, Ice cream and weight loss

When I was pregnant with my son I gained 80 whopping pounds! Holy shit right?! My limit was suppose to be like 15 pounds but lets be realistic...As a pregnant woman, it's sometimes hard to control cravings or to get motivated. Add on a deployment and living 5,000 miles away from your closest friends and family and bam! You have an accident waiting to gain weight! I lost more then half the weight but I was still sitting at 30lbs to go when I got pregnant with this little lady...I thought I was doomed.

I drink chocolate milk every other day. I have ice cream every day...We don't exactly eat healthy because of the fact that we own one pot and our microwave doesn't work. Lots of bologna sandwiches and spaghettios...Yet, I am almost 17 weeks pregnant and have gained only 5lbs. I recently lost a pound. Addisyn is healthy, I just had a doctors appointment. I have no idea what's going on but I guess I'm not really complaining either ;) I am confident that I can survive the last 23 weeks of this pregnancy gaining minimal weight so that when Addisyn is here I can easily go back to at least pre her weight, even if I'm still over my complete pre pregnancy weight of 150.

Also, on the up...I was looking at my tummy about a week ago and noticed that my stretchmarks randomly turned white and were barely visible. Of course I know they are there because it's my body and I notice the big things OR the little things. But I haven't been doing anything because our cocoa butter lotion is in my household goods shipment and I've certainly grown in the last few weeks. I know this won't last long because just like Russ, at the last minute I'll pop a million stretch marks or in my case they'll just darken again. However, everyone who told me they go away about a year after birth was completely right and I'm soooo surprised!


Well. Karl went back to work today. He left about 5:15am and it's now 5:30pm and he still isn't home. I hate these long days and after having him home almost all day everyday for the last 2 months I can honestly say THIS SUCKS! Thankfully he's on his way home. Will hopefully reach us by 5:45, we'll have dinner, bath russ, put him down and climb into bed ourselves. Russ hasn't been sleeping well lately so we go to bed as early as possible. Last night he woke up at 11pm and didn't go back to bed until 2am. I ended up sleeping on the floor because Karl just let him go to sleep in the bed with us and Russ kept kicking me because he didn't have enough room...He literally kicked me out of bed. Lol
We use to sleep with Russ in the bed occasionally. I would do it when Karl would work his 24 hour shifts and we'd do it on the nights he was sick but he never got attached. Never had a problem putting him back in his own bed. But now...Man...About a week ago he started sleeping bad and we noticed we could get him back to sleep quicker if we let him fall asleep with us in bed and now, he wakes up and doesn't go back to bed until he's in bed with us. Usually when he does fall back asleep we put him back in his play pen but now as soon as we do he wakes up screaming. He's developed a ridiculous habit and I have no idea how to break it because he's so stubborn. You can't let this kid "cry it out" because that doesn't work. He will cry and cry and cry and cry for 2-3 hours and by that time, we've given up. The doctor told us anyways that the crying it out method doesn't work for all kids...Certainly doesn't work for Russ.

Overtime though, we will figure the sleep thing out. He's always been a horrible sleeper! Hopefully his sister will do better! (:

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Colorado life.

This is where we live. Behind the city with the best views of the mountains!

Before we moved to Colorado we had talked to numerous people about what the area was like. We never heard one bad thing about it. Neither of us had every been in the city before but we took the chance and decided on our moved based off what others were telling us.

"It's beautiful!"

"A family friendly state!"

"There is so much to do, you won't regret it."

And though we haven't done much because we are watching our money due to the drastic change of pay we are about to have, we have seen what the state has to offer.
We don't live close to the base we are stationed at, approximately 7-8 miles maybe but we do live close to Peterson AFB. We are about 3 miles from the commissary/BX. It literally takes us 2 minutes to get to the gate on Peterson. Which is great. Grocery shopping, banking, regular shopping, ect...All super close.

The people have all been great. We've only had one bad experience with a person and that was my midwife. She was old and probably hated her life anyways ;)

Everything is SUPER CLOSE to where we are. 1 mile down the road is the main road that goes through the springs. On that road is everything, walmart, sams, the mall, restaurants, car dealerships, banks, hotels, EVERYTHING! Lol There is no need to travel anywhere else. Everything is at our fingertips which makes gas saving easy! We have literally traveled the furthest about 8 miles from the house and that was to the hospital on Carson. We had a half a tank of gas when we arrived in Colorado a week ago and we still have a quarter tank left!

Since we are in the end of winter, it's still cold. But gets warmer during the day, (most days). Today it got to 57! SUMMER CLOTHES!!!!!! This morning at 41 I was wearing just a t shirt because it felt so nice after having weather in the 20's and 30's for a couple days. You adjust to it rather quickly!

I'm still having a hard time though adjusting to the elevation. Coming from sea level to about 6,000 feet above is just a bit of a transition. I get winded from just walking up the stairs in our house...Of course, I'm pregnant and this contributes but I mean, I'm about to die when I reach the top! My lips are constantly dry and I have this nasty rash on my arms from dry skin I'm assuming. Lotion is a must! Of course, I already have gotten into the habit of using it every day so we're on track...My hair here is constantly smooth and never frizzy, even if I don't blow dry and straighten after a shower. It goes almost instantly straight and is super soft. I LOVE IT!

Other then all the wonderful factors up top, Colorado is just another stop in our military career...So far we love it and at this point are talking about buying here. We've been off and on about it for awhile, since we first talked about moving here but now we are getting more serious about it. It's exactly smack dab in between both of our homes and plane tickets and/or driving wouldn't be that big of a deal to get home. Vacations would be more easily accessible because we wouldn't have to waste a full day + a few hours extra traveling each way which has taken away from vacations the last couple years and money to get home won't ever be an issue, unless of course we were completely dumb with our money.

Adjusting to the pay is going to be a transition. At this point we are considering taking ALL of our savings and putting it to pay off bills to free up several hundreds of dollars off our pay each month. This seems more practical at this point because in Hawaii, yes, living with all our bills and payments plus whatever recreation we wanted to partake it was possible but living here, though possible, wouldn't be comfortable.

Life really is great here. We love it and can't wait to build ourselves a bigger, better home with our new baby girl in August! And to all of our friends whom are contemplating Colorado...DO IT! You won't regret it (:

Anyways, it's movie time. Until next time!

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Snowy day!

It's early evening. 8:15pm to be exact. Russ is down for bed, Karl is reading and here I am chatting with my best friend online as I do daily, watching "Legally Blonde 2" and typing this blog. Again, it's been a few days since I've written but now that I have the internet, I find myself occupied with other things like eating or napping. I'm 16 weeks and I feel like I am eating everything in sight! I've been SO HUNGRY lately and I have no idea why. I've also started taking ridiculous amounts of naps again. Again, don't know why. Isn't the second trimester suppose to be energized and amazing?! Blahhh.



Today we got quite a bit of snow...It isn't the first day we've had snow but it's the first morning where we've woken up and it was still falling and heavily. It stuck all day and is still in our yard! It hasn't reached over 30 degrees and I've done nothing but cuddle under the blankets. I've been FROZEN! The heater was on all day and on most days (like yesterday) it'll get above 50, sometimes even into the 60's and we won't need the heater during the day because the sun heats the house just enough...But not today. Absolutely miserable. Eventually I ended up snuggled in front of the fireplace which was amazingly warm however it quickly was shut off once I realized how incredibly tough it was going to be to keep Russ away from it. He's already gotten a nasy burn on his fingers from grabbing my straightener that happened over a week ago and is still not healed so I definitely don't want any other accidents like this.

In Dutch news. He's slowly but surely learning potty training. He'll get it right and bark at the door but then has an accident randomly. In the middle of the night he wakes up and plays, just like a newborn! Lol He has realized that we pick his food and water bowls up and put them on the counter so that Russ doesn't get into them and now when he's hungry he jumps up to the counter and barks! It's adorable! Except when he does it in the middle of the night and wakes the baby!

Otherwise, nothing new and exciting. We got our washer and dryer delivered along with our dining room table a couple days ago. Internet and cable have been turned on yet there is still nothing too interesting on tv and no one is ever online. And here we are...
Tomorrow I have my 16 week appointment. It will be my first visit at Evans Army Community Hospital which is where I will deliver. I'll meet my OB and see how the hospital works. Hopefully much better then Tripler. Karl starts work on Monday, lammmeeee. So it'll be me and Russ alone every day! So we are now preparing for that!


Not much going on here. Until next time my friends (: